Friday, June 23, 2006

A new baby in the Eller house

No, it's not an infant. It's my new book and I'm so pumped.

Last week she arrived and was placed on my doorstep. She was all alone, but beautiful.

I took my new book to church to share with a friend. This was the hardest book I've ever written, possibly the hardest I will ever write. It was about my dysfunctional childhood, and yet it was more than that. It was a celebration of what God can do even when you grow up in chaos.

It's a healing book for moms who want to give their children something much greater than what they lived through as a child.

As I wrote this book, I struggled on a lot of different levels. I didn't want to minister to 100,000 moms and destroy my own mom. I prayed for wisdom. You know, God says he'll give us that when we ask, and he did.

I went to my mom and told her about the project. I let her know that I wouldn't do it unless she gave me permission, and that it wouldn't be an expose (a tell-all book), but rather a book that shows what God can do in a family that is hurting.

She not only gave me permission, but helped me write it as she shared bits and pieces from her own childhood. The parts that my mom shared are the most beautiful to me.

As I wrote I asked God to show me grace.

Last week when I brought my book to church to show a friend, I noticed several women sitting in front of me. Most are in their 20's and early 30's. They are from a local residential drug rehab center and are growing in their faith. They are awesome.

During prayer time I went up and prayed with one of the women. She was in her early 20's and named Sarah. She told me her story and how that she wanted me to pray that her child would grow up safe and loved and happy. She took both of my hands and placed them on her stomach. I felt the child move inside.

"Her name is Grace," she said.

Suddenly I saw God's hand in all of this. He showed me "grace" just like I asked, but in a way that was truly amazing.

That's why he asked me to write the book, and I pray that this book is a resource and a healing tool for moms and their beautiful children--no matter what their age--all over the nation.

Isn't God cool?



Reformed Mama said...

Where can I get a copy of your book?

Samantha said...

Congrats! Even though I'm not a mom I'l like to read your book. Let me know where I can find it!

Julie Garmon said...

Oh Suzie, you made me cry with this post. That's what it's all about. May the Lord bless your effort. Is it out in stores yet?

Congrats to the new Mama.

Love, Julie

T. Suzanne Eller said...

You can preorder it right now through Just go to and put in the keywords:

Suzanne Eller

and my books will show up. It's called "The Mom I Want to Be". : )



Mitali Perkins said...

I'm sure SO many Moms will be blessed and encouraged by this book and that your words will be used to silence the voice that shames them. Praise be to God.