Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Are you who you want to be?

"This is your life. Are you who you want to be?"

That's a line from a Switchfoot song. And it's a good question. But I think there's an even better one.

In some ways ninth grade was the hardest year of my life. Though I loved my family, I no longer felt that being a part of it provided enough identity, and I had absolutely no idea who I was or, for that matter, who I wanted to be. I lived with a constant sense of discontent--never completely satisfied. Never 100% at home in my skin.

I had friends. I had hobbies. I had a safe, loving home. But I had no idea what my purpose for existence was. And I didn't know where to find it.

In tenth grade everything changed. And it all started with a question God seemed to ask my fearful heart. "Who made you?"

I realized something that day. God made me, and He made me with a definite plan and purpose. This is my life, but I am not my own. I've been bought with a price. The question isn't, "Are you who you want to be?" It's "Are you who God made you to be?"

Not only did I realize He designed me with pathway in mind, I also understood that he was able to reveal it to me, step by step. I didn't have to know the whole story. All I needed to do was keep my hand in His and let Him guide me.

That was thirty-two years ago. If you ask me today, "Are you who you want to be?" my answer is a resounding, "Yes!" I am His. And that's who I want to be.


Anonymous said...

it makes a lot o sent to this crazy world the chirsten live

Dionna Sanchez said...

Very thought provoking and I totally agree with your sentiments.

Tricia Goyer said...

Jeanne, I think we were thinking about the same topic. WHO AM I????

b said...

I really liked your blog - thank you so much, Jeanne. I think that is a really relevent question in today's culture. In all the commercials, posters, movies, and music, we are constantly being bombarded with a single message - you need _____ to be complete or _____ to be popular. Whether the blank is filled in by clothes or cars, the whole message is a lie. You were right in your blog, Jeanne. The question is not 'are you who who want to be', the question is 'are you who God made you to be'. All of life is a process. Be who God made you to be - not the perfect models you see on TV (besides - that's not exactly what they look like anyway).
In the book of Esther, Esther's uncle tells her this right after she has become queen of Persia: "You were put into this position [queen] for SUCH A TIME AS THIS". What position are you in right now? Student? Lawyer? Full-time Mom? You are there for SUCH A TIME AS THIS. RIGHT NOW! Let Christ move mightily in your life.

Jeanne Damoff said...

Thanks for the great feedback, gang. Excellent observations, b.