I just got an e-mail from a friend, inviting me to a worship team rehearsal for our church’s upcoming women’s retreat. I felt so silly when I read the message. Up until now I’d been secretly pouting, thinking the friend who is in charge of music for the retreat wasn’t going to ask me to be part of the team. I’d let her know that I was available and overheard her asking others but she hadn’t officially asked me. Past hurts only added to the insecurity "See, she doesn’t want me around." I made up my mind that I’d been snubbed and was working on praying for an attitude adjustment so I could enjoy the retreat without dwelling on how left out I felt. Then the invitation came.
After I sent the reply (a possibly overly enthusiastic yes) I took the experience as a reminder to . . .
Be careful about giving into my insecurities.
Learn to give people the benefit of the doubt.
Remember that God does hear our whiney “I know I’m still acting like a seventh grader but . . . “ prayers.
I also see that I need to let go of those past hurts that prompted me to assume the worst and turn her choices of worship team members into a personal thing.
So today I’m thanking God, not only for the chance to help lead worship at the retreat, but also for a reminder to let go of some of my insecurities and let Him teach me to trust my friends.